Carpe Diem

This is a random and useless rant, but I'd like to express how I'm feeling. I'm very far behind pace for the amount of volume I've had for the year and am just downright unmotivated. I always day dream about one day playing high stakes and making a name for myself along with some decent wealth for a kid my age. The problem is I'm day dreaming, I'm not making a good enough effort to even attempt to make it a reality. I'm not treating it like a job like I hoped to, I'm treating it like a recreational hobby. I see kids my age on 2+2 achieving what I've dreamed of why can't I be them? To put it simply it's all about motivation and my all around laziness when it comes to playing poker. I find plenty of time for reading and browsing 2+2, cardrunners, and fellow grinders blogs, but how much of this time could be spent actually putting in hands? A lot of it. From now on besides schoolwork I'm putting poker playing as a high priority. I'm sick of having a month go by and being like damn I really didn't play nearly as much as I thought I might this month. Carpe Diem! If there is any day to seize it is today and starting tomorrow (actually today since it is 12:35am) I'm going to start doing so. I need to keep the grind on my mind. Let's see how this works out and hopefully I can finally make the change that is needed as time is being wasted everyday. That's all for now.